साझाका एक वाचाल लेखक र केही मौन पाठकहरु समेतसंगको न्यूयोर्कको गएको सप्ताहान्त एक अविस्मरणिय सम्झना र शायद कुनै कठीनसदृश यात्राको सहजीकरण र विस्तृतिकरण समेत रह्यो मेरा लागि । काव्य, दर्शन, राजनीति र आत्मकथा- त्यो पनि ठट्टा र गम्भिरताका दुवैका दोभान पुन्टेजी र उनलाई लिटररी खर्लप्पै निलिदिने भाउजुको लेजेन्डरी आतिथ्य, स्वादिष्ट व्यञ्जन, रूचि अनुसारको पेय, सुरुचिसम्पन्न बन्धुबान्धवको जमघट, बेहद ठट्यौली र अनवरत हाँसोको फोहोरा बिच । त्यसको धङधङी अझै यसरी बाँकी छ, छुट्टिएको आभासै हुँदैन । वास्तवमा छुट्टिन यति कठीन थियो, एक रात अझै थपियो मेरो यात्रा योजनामा । भर्सेलामा जाओस् मलाई ल्याबमा पर्खिरहेका एक्स्पेरिमेन्टहरु, तर यो जमघट, यो माहौल, आत्मोदघाटनका यी आत्मिय क्षणहरुको मोह अहँ संवरण गर्न सक्तिन म । अनि रोकिएँ म एक रात अरु ।

तर पहिले पहिलो साँझको पहिलो कार्यक्रम, "मालती मङ्गले" । हाम्रा राष्ट्रवादी कविवर माधव घिमिरेको यो सामन्तवादी, भाग्यवादी दु:खान्त नाटक हेर्ने कुरा त एक बहाना थियो, नेपाली नाट्यकला र कलाकारहरुलाई सशरिर निकट दर्शन गर्ने । गरियो ।

नाटकलाई एक पूर्वकलाकारको आँखाले शायद मैले भिन्दै हेरें । मलाई छुने एउटै कुरो रह्यो । नायिका लक्ष्मी श्रेष्ठको अभिनय । अरुले खै के हेरे, के देखे, मैले त उनलाई नाटकभरि 'ट्रान्स' को स्थितिमा अभिनय गरिरहेको देखें । त्यो साँघुरो मञ्च, ती लिलिपुट आकारका सेटहरुले उनको अभिनयलाई अलिकति पनि स्वसचेततामा झारेन । अरुहरु सचेत थिए ।

नाटक पछि लक्ष्मीसंग भेट भयो । भनिन्, "चिनें, तर अलि मोटाएछौ" । मोटाईको कुरै छाडौं । मभन्दा अग्ला अग्ला दुई सुकुमार छोराका बिचमा उभिएकी लक्ष्मीलाई जमाना अघि जस्तैको पाएँ । उनिसंग मेरो निकटतम संसर्ग भनेको १७-१८ वर्ष काठमाडौमा "रोमियो जुलियट" को रिहर्सल र मञ्चन हुँदा हो । उनिले "जुलियट" को भूमिकामा र मैले चाहिं उनलाई "रोमियो" सित बिहे गराईदिने पादरीको भूमिकामा अभिनय गरेका थियौं, त्यस नाटकमा ।
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दादागिरीजी,

९९७ जना बेईमान वकिलहरुले "अवैधानिक निर्णय" गरे पनि, ३ जनाले ईमान राखेछन् नि ता, के को पिर गर्नुहुन्छ ?

Nepeji and NewuserJi, I really appreciate your persistent efforts, lets say fight! against absolute monarchy and support for freedom, human rights and democracy in Nepal. I think i do share and agree with most of your views about serimoneal monarchy and multiparty democracy where civil rights, individul freedom and human rights are respected in reality and i think anyone with concious mind may not want to disagree with these basic tenents of 21 century world. I am silent reader of your writings and at least i am acquainted a little bit about Nepe's personality from my uncle (who is a friend of Nepe). Although i don't have very deep disagreement with his ideas, objectivity and intensions i do have little bit to say about his way/style of writing and presenting his ideas to the readers. In some occasions, he seems to be very much harrashing to the oponents of his ideology and writes very personal things/examples. I think it may be due to our generation gap or whatever i generally find difficulty in digesting his writing style eventhough he writes what i also think about Nepal. Nothing personal to u Nepe uncle (i think i should call u uncle, Never mind hai, let me know if u don't like it). I mean, i sometimes feel that if Nepe incorporates some pleasent and liberal writing styles into his postings he would beyound any doubt be really fantastic thinker and prodemocratic activist of the present time in Neplese diaspora. I think you will win the heart of people (including oponents) if you approach to them with love and respect and i think these are the things integral to democretic norms. Anyway, these are my personal views, forgive me if that hurts u any form and style.

Nut

Dear Nut,

You gave me perhaps the best compliments I ever got. I seriously doubt if I deserve it, however I am deeply honored.

After this much honor, I will plead guilty to any charge you bring, ehehehe.

But seriously, I confess that occasionally I have assumed a hostile pose to opposite political views in Sajha. However, this is limited to political views only and that too to hostile postings themselves.

But this is not meant to justify my style. I am sure with a little bit more patience, I can do much better. It's just that with the volume of hostility, indecency and irresponsibility I have seen in Sajha throughout 4 years of my stay, my patience (my patience was legendary among my friends and family. My grandmother, legendary for dominance and power, used to call me 'Buddha' for my docility and patience !) has eroded to some extent.

But that is not full explanation for my hostile style. This hostility basically comes from a sense of activism. I am not sure if writing in Sajha with a sense of activism (cf. pure academic purpose) makes sense. However, I have been getting compliments from fellow activists for exactly doing that.

Activism is tiresome and acting a hostile pose when in fact I am not so is even more tiresome. So trust me I will more than happy to have an academic atmosphere in Sajha and be able to engage in engaging discussions.

So Dear Nut, I thank you for this opportunity to make my confessions and also to enjoy your priceless compliments. Thank you.

Nepe uncle

WOW!! I am really thrilled with ur enormously positive and encouraging response. I have been reading very closely all the political and some other relevant and interesting discussion in this forum and I was kind of thinking to write about u but again, I thought you would get offended and would reply with hostility. But you proved me wrong and I think this is the first step to feel confident with your words. I am happy with all of your confessions and commitment for engaging in academic and amicable discussions. Thanks a lot!! BTW, I have listened from my uncle about your gazaals, PhD from Israel and almost grown up kids!! (I guess even my uncle does not know anything after your PhD thing, may be you guys are out of contact even if both of you are in US academia!! Fortunately I was visiting my uncle place during the DC rally and when I showed him the DC rally Pictures from sajha, he happened to recognize you). Well I have started one thread ?How many PhDs in sajha?. I am really looking forward to hear about your research (sweet/better experiences!!) in that thread (only if you feel comfortable with sharing it in the public forum).
Nut

poonte daii how cud you forget me .??..damn..i'm gonna dizzu for another weekend

Nut,

Thrill is all mine. I have shot an email to you. Would like to talk to you more and privately.

On a public note, I am glad to see young people like you joining Sajha and trying to create a good atmosphere here.

Sajha is one of the most popular sites and it's ironic if not pity that it has also become perhaps one of the most abusive sites.

I do hope people like you will change it into a site worth recommending to people we care. I don't know exactly how to make that happen, but it deserves to be so.

Nepe

To bring back the original spirit of the thread, here is a picture from the party. Nepe uncle dancing with the host and a guest. . .

oops. . . here it is